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What is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?

Wednesday, June 30th, 2010

The Summer Day – Mary Oliver – 1992

Who made the world?

Who made the swan, and the black bear?

Who made the grasshopper?

This grasshopper, I mean—

the one who has flung herself out of the grass,

the one who is eating sugar out of my hand,

who is moving her jaws back and forth instead of up and down—

who is gazing around with her enormous and complicated eyes.

Now she lifts her pale forearms and thoroughly washes her face.

Now she snaps her wings open, and floats away.

I don’t know exactly what a prayer is.

I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down

into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass,

how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields,

which is what I have been doing all day.

Tell me, what else should I have done?

Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?

Tell me, what is it you plan to do

with your one wild and precious life?

Writing anything after this seems almost arrogant. How could I possibly speak another word to break the trance of the beauty of this poem.

In my quest to remember the deep feminine part of myself, the ability to  be ‘idle in the fields’ for a whole day sounds so decadent, so alien to the work-a-holic self I have spent years cultivating. I am not sure I could allow myself this luxury. Yet we (in the world of the G20) have become so disconnected for the earth, from nature, from beauty. Always in a hurry, always so much to be done.  We have forgotten how to cultivate a garden, live off the earth, feel the sand/soil/grass beneath bare feet. To do nothing, and in the doing of nothing, be everything.

Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?

Do we live in a sufficient Universe?

Thursday, April 22nd, 2010

What if there is more than enough for everyone? And you not only believed it, you lived it?

In an earlier article I talked about our societal enmeshment in the scarcity principle. We are so caught up in the model of scarcity without even knowing that we are caught.

Fear of our own security and protection, and of having ‘enough’ drive most of our thinking, acting and being. The tragedy is that this fear is so ‘normal’ we do not even know we are in it.

In my life so far as I have worked to release myself from the grip of the illusion of scarcity, I have had good days and bad days.

Good days are days when I am connected to source. I feel positive, optimistic, and I see abundance.

Bad days are when I have fear running. There is not enough…money, time, love, years, sleep, time, money…did I mention those?

Last week I thought about this question…

What if there was more than enough for everyone? More than enough food, air, water, time, love, money, sleep, safety, comfort….?

This then raised the next question…is it true that there is enough?

Well, lets look at that.

Is there enough time? Yes…we get to choose how we spend our time doing what matters. The illusion of not enough time is simply an illusion. If you have 15 minutes to get ready in the morning it will take you 15 minutes. If you have an hour, it will take you an hour.

Is there enough energy? Yes…despite the propagation of fear around our energy supplies, we have more than enough energy from the sun and other renewable resources to give every person on the planet more than they will need. The gap between our technology efficiency is diminishing every day.

Is there enough money? Yes..this is a really interesting question, and in my unequivocal answer of yes I have to give a bit more detail to a quite complex issue. At one level, if you think of money as the stuff (mostly electronic) that circulates the globe every day, is there enough for every human on the planet to live well? Certainly. Some hundreds of trillions of dollars, which is so much that no one really can grasp it.  Problem is that the money gets pooled in a few places, and doesn’t really circulate. When we sit on our foot for a while and then stand up, our foot doesn’t function because the circulation has been cut off. Similarly, pooling money in a few places on the earth body doesn’t allow healthy function. We get stagnation, decay and breakdown in certain areas.

Money also gets directed to other places with questionable value, like the money spent on weapons of killingry. If this money was directed towards livingry, as Bucky would say, hunger would be solved world wide in a matter of weeks.

And if we took responsibility for out health, as I mentioned in an article last week, that would also free up huge amounts of money to be directed to other areas that are in need.

So there is no shortage of this stuff called money.

To get just a little more below the surface of this issue, if we look at what we do on a day to day basis that adds value to the world, is there enough value to be added that warrants an exchange of value? In other words, do you do work that adds real value? (Moving derivatives around the world on a computer does not add real value.) If you are working at something that adds value to others, then there is always the place for exchange.

How about food? Is there enough food? Certainly for some people in the world there is not enough food. However, that is not because there is not enough food globally, but that there is not enough food locally. Again, the system is stagnated. In parts of the world we are dying of obesity, in other parts we are dying of starvation. We criticize the Wall Street bankers for greed while the middle and lower class suffer, but are we any better? We stuff our faces with too much food while our cousins in other parts of the world die of hunger. Is this not also greed? As is stuffing our faces with food that has little to no nutritional value and becoming unhealthy. Just another form of greed.

And water, is there enough? Again, in some places water is a scarce resource. But when we finally learn to manage our resources in a respectful and healthy way, we have enough water. Bucky created homes in the 1940’s that managed on several liters of water every day for all house hold chores. Its not the lack of water that is the issue, its our carelessness in its use.

What I began to realise as I thought about this question was that there is enough. The key  is to stop thinking locally only, and to start to consider our global actions.

At a global level there is enough money, food, water, energy….we do live in a sufficient Universe. Sure we need a game change, but there is enough.

The scarcity principle is a myth of seeing ourselves as isolated, as individuals competing for. When we step back and look at the whole, starting with Universe first, we see that there is enough. That if we work together, collaborate, share, care for each other, there is more than enough.

Does this collaborative and comprehensively considerate action allow for creativity, individualism, personal success, entrepreneurialism? Is there a space for this? Yes…there is so much to learn, and explore and discover about how we inhabit our earth in a way that is sustainable for all. There are so many wonderful things we have yet to create that will enrich lives everywhere. It is time for the biggest hit of creativity innovation ever. But this doesn’t mean that I get to create and you get to go hungry.

And before you jump to conclusions, I am not talking about socialism here. I am talking about something that allows creativity, entrepreneurialism and such, but without the gluttony, and certainly without it costing others their health, money, environment and livelihood. Truly, how many cars, or houses, or TV’s , or ?? is enough for one person?

Scarcity is based on win/lose. I win, you lose. I eat, you go hungry.

Sufficiency is based on win win win. I win, you win, the family, the nation, the environment..wins.

Having considered all of these questions I decided that I do indeed live in a sufficient and abundant Universe. There is enough, more than enough.

Now the question gets down to the next level, below the scarcity and into my worthiness.  Do I allow myself to experience enoughness? No just intellectually, but in an embodied way? Am I worthy of enough?

I will keep you posted on this one. Let me just say its a big one.

In the mean time, I ask you to really consider that we do….you do…I do…live in a sufficient Universe. If this is true, and you really do believe it is true, how will you show up differently?

How would you act, think, believe and behave differently knowing that there is enough?

And what area do you feel the most lack? Love, money, time, sex, security, friends, intimacy….?

Do ask yourself of this is true…really true that there is lack in this part of your life?

Let me know your thoughts, opinions, questions, experiences..


At What Price Integrity in the Workplace

Tuesday, March 16th, 2010

I am reasonably smart women, very well read, able to converse with pretty much anyone on many issues, able to see complexity as well as most of the most able, and yet I feel I  suffer in the world I work in, because I haven’t done a few things.

I haven’t:

Built a multi million dollar company.

Made millions.

Held a high power job at the senior level.

Written a best selling book. (Yet)

Worked with people well known for their outrageous success at making money and being famous.

Married the right guy??

Slept with the right guy…the one with the money, fame, connections.

I don’t;

Play golf.

Have time for the serious wanking that goes on over long business lunches or dinners.

Enjoy the whole ego stroking games that are endemic in the corporate world.

I am not into;

The seduction and manipulation that seems to be the requisite entry into the click of power.

Sleeping my way anywhere.

Compromising my own integrity in the workplace in any form just to get a leg up. (figuratively and literally)

I am certainly not a member of the Boys Club, which is another name for the club where all the wanking and ego posturing goes on, mostly made up of men.

Instead I have;

Earned my own income for 26 years as a self employed person doing work I love, through my own creativity, determination, and persistence.

Raised a healthy, beautiful, emotionally strong child as a single parent since she was two.

Maintained a healthy, rich, vital relationship with my daughter through all of these years and been present for her major moments.

Stayed fit and healthy.

Built and maintained relationships with incredible people around the world who use the same kind of rule book as I do. (Unwilling to compromise their own integrity.)

Continued daily to put myself up for the highest degree of coaching, scrutiny, self reflection, feedback, learning, as I can find.

Learned that on my own I am a fraction of what I am when I collaborate with like minded others.

Lost money, been broke, been terrified of where the next dollar will come.

Travelled the world.

Made some serious mistakes, and some not so serious ones.

Spent too much on credit cards. (No longer.)

Yet I have realised that I am constantly apologising to myself for my own failures.(@#$!%%!!) I have still measured myself against the success of the old broken down model highlighted above…that I need to demonstrate my value by what I have done and the models I have built in the world. How many people follow my blog, read my articles, hire me, pay me…how much money I have in the bank who are my clients, what are my material assets… etc etc….

This is a seriously tiresome and entirely pointless waste of energy. This comparing and measuring stuff. As the artist Hugh MacLeod said, “Never compare your inside with somebody else’s outside.

Stop this useless waste of energy my head screams. Just stop. Cut it out. Stop my own BS/victim story. Enough already!

As Bucky said, “You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something, build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete.”

I have been focusing too much on what doesn’t work, and how I don’t like that it doesn’t work.

Focus only on doing more and more with what matters most that I can change and influence.

Acting always and only from the highest level of integrity for the health of all of humanity and life.

Or as the great Seth Godin says in his wonderful book, “Linchpin”, practice my art, be indispensable and ship.

I asked my coach today what she thought was my “superpower” (a question Seth asks, referring to the super hero’s of the comic books).

Without a moments hesitation, she said, “Christine, you can see bullshit better than anyone I know.”

Who is up for having a bullshit detector in their lives, or in the businesses? Who is up for that highest level of accountability to their own truth? (First I need to stop the BS around my comparison.) Who is up for Integrity in the workplace?

What organisations, politicians, NGO’s are up for this level of Integrity in the workplace? (Not many, sadly.)

And what value is this integrity in the workplace to you? To your company? Do you Dare?

I do believe in my heart that so many of us are over all the bullshit. That it is sickening, exhausting to maintain. Both the constant BS from others, and the endless BS we tell ourselves about ourselves. Yet sadly we have also reached a point where our bullshit detectors are dimmed by the constant barrage. We step over the lies and seductions from our politicians, and corporate leaders, knowing what they do, but pretending not to know how to stop it when BS seems to be all that happens. We have become immune, and bullshit is the golden staph of our age.

And the even more silent pandemic is the BS that we do not even know about. What goes on behind the scenes in the shadow corridors of money and power. Just how much we are under a spell of trickery and illusion.

Hmm…its time to roll up my sleeves and get out the shovel. There is so much work to be done on shining the light on the bullshit, and having done so, building in its place, integrity. People of integrity, systems of integrity, organisations of integrity, communities of integrity. Integrity in the workplace.

Who is up for this? More than the money, more than the fame, give me work that is a shining light of integrity. On this I wish to be measured.

A Perfect Sunday Morning on the Gold Coast

Sunday, January 17th, 2010

Gold Coast beach from helicopterView North from Burleigh Heads

My regret today was I didn’t have a camera to capture some of the incredible beauty. I was running, so camera’s may be difficult to carry. I have to hold the perfection in my soul instead.

Given the high temperatures and humidity we have been having, my group of running friends and I have switched our Sunday run from the forest to beach side. Mostly so we can jump into the ocean when we are done.

Our Sunday runs are long…at least 2 hours…and have hills. So we have created a run around the hills of Burleigh Heads, on Queensland’s Gold Coast. Total of 556 meters elevation according to my trusty Garmin.

5 am, about 27 C (80.6 F) and humid. We are on top of the first hill when the sun comes over the Pacific Ocean just after 5. It is one of those days when the sky is mostly clear, (we don’t have evident pollution where I live…clear means cloud free) and at this time of day the light is so beautiful, with Burleigh Headland to the South, and the high rises of Surfers Paradise to the North. It was perfect.

At some point in the run we are on top of a hill at the back of Burleigh Heads with views across the ocean. Wow.

Running on Burleigh Headland hill, a national park, we could be in any subtropical forest in the world. Yet we are minutes to main stream beach community life. Wild turkeys get out of the way, very used to human pedestrian traffic. Back around the hill we look North to Surfers Paradise across the Pandanus Palms. (see the photo above, which is taken at Burleigh looking North.) Since today the ocean is fairly flat, one lone surfer is at the famous Burleigh break. It is one of my most favourite views in all the world and today it was worth stopping to enjoy.

Back to Miami Surf club, now just after 7 am, and a hive of activity, as is every surf club in Australia on a Sunday morning in summer (actually for all but four months of the year). The Aussie way of life is surf clubs, nippers (junior surf lifesavers, starting age 6) and all the things that go with beaches and oceans. Even with our incredible surf life saving culture, since New Year we have had four drownings. More than usual and tragic. People not swimming in the flagged area and having a very poor understanding of the power of the ocean. Mostly tourists. Never underestimate the ocean. Its power and unpredictability are to be taken with great seriousness.

We spent a good 20 minutes in the ocean. The water temperature was fresh enough to cool you down, not too cold to chill you. Just right. I bobbed out beyond the wave break enjoying the beauty, the sensation of salt water floating, the freshness of the water.

Followed by a beach shower, some stretching and then a wonderful healthy breakfast at the local beach side cafe.

This was as perfect a start to a morning as I could ever imagine. Great company, hard exercise, beautiful scenery, ocean swim, leisurely breakfast….

In all my world travels there are few places that have ever enticed me to move. Hawaii would do at a pinch. The lifestyle here is me to a T. Not city, not country. Close to cities and an easy flight to Sydney. Outdoor lifestyle…not many places you can swim in a public 50 meter pool outdoors 365 days of a year and not get cold. The fantastic Gold Coast Hinterland 20 minutes drive away, with incredible walking/running trails. Rare to drive anywhere in under 15-20 minutes, locally. Not many traffic issues, particularly with my lifestyle, which has never been 9-5.

I was speaking to a friend this week who is not happy with where in the world he lives and it occurred to me that the place I live, the latitude and longitude, plus the place I call home, is very critical to my state of mind. So critical in fact that it really is a non negotiable. My soul hums here. I can breath clean air, inside and out. The light and open spaces and sunshine make me feel vital and alive. I could not compromise any other way of being.

Winter is mild. Cold enough to wear boots and a jacket, heating not required often. A nice change, and only lasting 4 months. I swim in the ocean from September to late May.

Not only do I feel incredibly nourished by my environment, it energises me. Every day.

Which gets me to thinking…how many people who do have a choice live in a place that doesn’t nourish them? We see so many articles about people who are encouraged to do work that fulfills them, but rarely do we see articles about living in an environment that really nourishes every part of your being.

If we are working on how to show up every single day with the best of us shining, this is as critical as any factor. Finding a place to call home that makes your soul sing. It is not about how many square meters your home is…or all the goodies/stuff in your home…my home is a two bedroom condo, but it is in a very quiet area, very close to all the things I like, has high ceilings, nothing fancy (I don’t even own a flat screen TV..given that I don’t really watch TV can’t see the point), a little courtyard garden where I grow my herbs…but it is enough. And enough is perfect.

Are you were your soul sings?

Simplicity on the other side of illusory complexity

Friday, January 1st, 2010

Want to loose weight?

Eat less food (preferably eat fresh local food)

Get more exercise.

Want to get out of debt?

Spend less money.

Pay off your debts first.

Want to be happy?

Stop thinking miserable thoughts.

Do more of what you love with people you love.

Want to make a difference?

Think about the short, medium and long term consequences of everything that you say and do.

Take actions that only have a positive consequence in the short medium and long term.

Want a better relationship?

Focus on the things you love about your partner, friends, family.

Act/speak from love, be grateful, open your heart…

Want better leadership?

Be a better leader first.

Speak up when people in leadership lie, cheat, manipulate, seduce…

Want to be a better person?

Speak, act, live, be in integrity always.

Practice gratitude.

Why do we want the easy solution? The magic formula? The quick fix? The silver bullet? The Blue pill?

Because the simple actions above are also the most hard. And so we make the solutions very complex, but in the act of doing so we continue to keep the truth at arms length. We get caught up in the noise and distraction of the complex to avoid the truth. And that truth is…  that we do not want to eat less, exercise more…we want to keep doing what we have been doing and have a magic formula that allows us to have our cake and eat it too. We like to have a story to complain about, we like to avoid, at all costs, the core truth.

For things to change, first I must change.

What are you committed to change in you in 2010?

Boy do we make things complex….

Wednesday, December 16th, 2009

Take climate change for example. Yep there is a lot of competing evidence one way of another, and sure, there are so many stakeholders with so many fingers in so many pies….but really guys, have we forgotten the basics?

The giant elephant in the room is that we, and I mean all of us, need to take responsibility for the field effects of our every action and thought. Its time. This is the game we play when we grow up. We throw away the childish ways of not knowing what happens afterwards, and we start to consider the all in consequence. No longer is it OK to blame, or to condone bad behaviour, by anyone. Our cavalier way of life, with no regard for the short and long term consequence, is what is in question here. And the effect of being more thoughtful and considerate, no matter if climate change is a myth or real, will be a win for all. Sure some big corporates may loose a bucket of money, but if they were smart, they can stop this from happening by being adaptive in their activity, and proactive in what they produce and how they do it.

We get so caught in the gory details, distracted from the real issue.  The real issue  doesn’t just rest with the government, or with big business, or with anyone else. It rests with our own level of CARE for all that we do, and our understanding that what I do, affects you, whether you are in the same room, or across the planet. And this is the issue. From which we can try to run, but we simply have no where to run away to, because there is no “there” that is away from us except in the very immediate short term. Eventually “there” will find us because to this point we all live on the same planet, and breath the same air.

In the early 80’s, Buckminster Fuller did the math. Humanities present rate of total energy consumption amounts to only one four-millionth of one percent of the rate of energy income. In other words, there is so much energy available to us every day, more than anyone could ever use, from the sun, wind, tides etc..all renewable. We do not have an energy crisis, we have a distribution crisis. And in this lies so many opportunities.

Bucky also said that using up our fossil fuel stores is like living off our savings account, when we have so much deposited into our cash account. We are going deeper into the red when we have a huge supply right at our fingertips. Waiting, waiting, for us to wise up. And human ingenuity…well of course we can find the solution to how to use renewable energy in a most efficient way…

As David Martin says so well in his great blog post, while all the distracting hoopla is going on about CO2, and cap and trade, and parts per million, few people are focused on the real conversations. For example, what if we found a better way to get energy, no matter what the source, from point A to the consumer. As its stands, the way it is distributed, close to 80% of the original energy is lost! What if this was reduced to 10%? That would be the single best action we could take. So obvious, yet no one seems to be focused on this.

It seems our focus and our energy is pointed in the wrong direction. And I say this literally and figuratively.

This seems to be our biggest dilemma. Our addiction to focusing on the drama and the noise. Instead of stepping back and getting perspective. See what is really going on. Taking time to consider the whole. Look from this place to the obvious..what is missing, where are the opportunities, what am I not seeing? This was one of Bucky’s main arguments, which is built around the principle of Synergy. That we simply must start with the whole first.

Instead we get caught in the swamp. All the noise and its endless attractions and distractions. Rather like we do in our own lives, where doing email, or going on facebook, or gossiping in the corridor, getting caught up in the noise of life, is easier than doing what we know in our hearts needs to be done, and often that means stepping away from the noise and getting some clear perspective, or cleaning up our own act, whether it is around our diet, our energy use, our carelessness…

Take the whole debate on obesity. Apparently there was story of a lady in Australia who lost 85 kgs (187 lbs) because she started doing moderate exercise and gave up junk food! No other fads or gimmicks. Well, of course she lost weight by doing this. It really is this simple. And yet we have an industry that make billions out of gimmicks. Why? Because we all want the easy path that doesn’t require that we modify our behaviour. Heaven forbid that we live a healthy lifestyle! I mean, that would mean I would have to take responsibility for my own health? I would have to learn about healthy food and cooking, get in touch with my body like I haven’t before, because I have been ignoring it for years, even though it has been screaming at me every time I go up a flight of stairs, or step on the scales, find ways to exercise that suit my size and temperament, and get educated on the dire side effects of medication instead of handing myself over to some guy/gal in a white coat. Oh no, changing my diet and getting out of bed in the morning to go for a walk is too hard. Getting educated is too hard… I’d rather pay for the drug, and then the surgery..forgetting of course that it is just not me who is paying..depending on which country you come from…that we all pay…..in so many ways…over and over again.

So we have a health crisis, where the cost of health care is skyrocketing. And the solution. Simple. Stop eating junk, get more exercise, quit smoking, get good sleep. Why is this not the only major conversation on this issue? Why don’t we talk about prevention?

Where do we focus? On everything else but the obvious. On who pays for what, and what the insurance companies can and can’t do, and how the system works, on and on endlessly. So the giant machine of noise can keep going, and once again, we are off the hook. It is someone else’s problem, and heaven forbid if I get my butt off the chair and go do something about it. Oh I can’t exercise, I have weak knee’s, I might say! A few weeks ago a guy “walked” the Kokoda Trail in Papua New Guinea, all 96 kilometers (59.6 miles) of extreme terrain, using his hands and dragging his legs, because he is a paraplegic. If he can do this, I can do exercise with weak knee’s. Take up swimming for heavens sake…but stop moaning and doing nothing!

Do I sound angry? Yes. This annoys the #@%$# out of me. We have lost touch with the very core of our human existence. Our connection to earth, nature, and our bodies. We don’t take the time to really listen to the truth that whispers to us constantly. Instead we drown it out with more…and more…noise, and stuff and complexity, and distraction.

There is an excellent article on our lost relationship with the earth, written by Ellen Gunter and published on Caroline Myss’s site, for those of you who want a more micro understanding of where humanity is at. This conversation excites and inspires me far more than the bickering going on about how much we need to reduce our carbon. The carbon issue to me is just a smoke screen (an interesting pun), on where the real focus would be better served.

And back to us, at the coal face of life (interesting metaphor). We circle back, as always, to truth. For things to change first I must change. Lets not forget that it is not just about the world out there…our energy choices out there, our care of others out there. We also have to look inside, do the work in there…care for self in there, educate ourselves in there….

Would love to hear your thoughts on this hot little topic….

Living in the Mystery

Friday, November 20th, 2009

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All my life I have been motivated by curiosity. If I do not understand a word, I look up the meaning straight away on Dictionary.com. Google is my best friend, as is Wikipedia. I love love love that we have the internet and that answers to my questions are at my finger tips.

Of course some answers are not so easy to find. Like “Why am I here?” “What is the meaning of life?” Specifically, what is the meaning of my life?” And..”What exactly, is the point, anyway?”

While I have never got sucked into the vortex of these questions and fallen, like Alice, down the rabbit hole, into a dark and twisted existential crisis, lost in the impossibility of the answers, I have held these questions as a kind of beacon, their light shining just ahead, pulling me forward to continue my own inner journey, and in the process finding answers that bring peace, if not certainty. Sure, there have been days where it has seemed pointless. But these days for me have been rare. Mostly, I am in love with the mystery of it all. And in awe.

I am not sure why I respond to life in this way. In love with the mystery. Maybe it is because I am an adventurer at heart, and the inner adventure is as much fun, for the most part, as the one in the outside world. My curiosity pulls me. “Why did I just agree to do that?” “Wow, that was an interesting response Christine. What’s going on with you girl?” I find myself observing myself with fascination. And my quick little mind is happy at work, analyzing, finding meaning, making sense of.

Of course there are some things that simply do not make sense at all. Like why, exactly, are we so attracted to THAT particular person? Or why this happened? Or that?

And here in lies the beauty of life. Are we able to stand living in the mystery? Can our rational mind be allowed to relinquish control about some things, and not have all the answers available, lined up in neat little rows? For many people, this mystery unravels them. Their need to have a rational explanation, to be in control of their world, is so great, that the burden of not knowing truly sucks them into a dark rabbit hole. The impossibility of finding a rational answer to the questions pecking at them becomes so unsustainable, yet like an addict, they keep asking, lost, lost in their need.

Living in the mystery allows for the adventure to continue. If we have been everywhere, and experienced everything, why have an adventure? If we know all the answers, and have no more questions, what happens then? Does life stop? I think not. I think that that is the point. First, that the beauty of the ever unfolding mystery of life is the main adventure, and our not knowing is the pull, like the eternal seeking for that one lover who really does complete you. And that when we reach a place of inner knowing, when our questions stop because we have found the source of truth, that doesn’t mean the adventure stops. It means that the adventure now is all about observing how this allows life to unfold around us. Rather like going to an fabulous movie and being swept up in the story. (As I haven’t reached that place I can only conjecture.)

The tragedy is when people loose their love of the mystery. For whatever reason, life wears them down, and their inner fatigue and exhaustion is so overwhelming that they loose all interest in living in the mystery. They become buried in resignation and hopelessness. Many times we have confused clinical depression with a spiritual crisis. A spiritual crisis demands that we go inside and do the work. A spiritual crisis is usually brought on by the loss of something that makes no sense. It could be the loss of a loved one, or a job, or something a little more subtle, like the loss of our sense of self. Whatever the trigger, the demand and requirement is for us to go inside and sit with some of the questions that define us, and to preferably do this inner work with the support of someone skilled in staying with you as you loose your rational mind to be reunited with the mysterious. An Amchara coach for example. Someone how knows the nuances of the terrain on the inside, the need for silence, the need to be in nature, then need to rediscover beauty. Who has the ability to ask the gentle and hard questions birthed in infinite compassion, all the while responding to the unfolding unraveling aware of the majesty of kairos time.

What I have learned in my own inner journey are the essentials to pack as we embark, or continue on our adventure.

*A curious mind.
*The willingness to not know and surrender to the not knowing.
*A exquisite love of beauty, be it art, or music, poetry or nature. These things transcend the rational. Art, music, poetry capture what we are not able to capture in words. Sitting in nature and really looking at its incredible complexity and infinite beauty takes us out from our small mind games.
*The support of an amchara or two, or a teacher or guide.
*A daily practice that keeps us grounded, earthed, embodied.
*An open heart.
*Courage
*A good sense of humor. Learn to laugh at yourself and the shear paradox of it all.

In 1995 I held my own weekend retreat, attended by myself and an extensive list of questions. At the end of that journey of inner contemplation, I wrote my personal mission statement, which I very slightly amended in 2002.

Here it is. It doesn’t speak of who I am as much as the place I hold for myself. Sometimes I do not get it right. No matter. I come back and start again. This is my inner guide. More than anything, this mission statement reminds me of the beauty of living in the mystery.

MISSION STATEMENT
CHRISTINE MCDOUGALL
3-1-95, amended Jan 2002

To live my truth at all times, allowing my spirit to shine forth graciously and inspire others to acknowledge their own magnificence.
To be humble and open, in surrender to God’s grace.
To trust in the Divine Energy.
To love comprehensively.
To respect and honour the physical Universe and my own physicality.
To be, joyously, all that I am.
To laugh often, and share my joy abundantly.
To be a willing and gracious disciple of life’s lessons.
To openly receive the abundance of the Universe, to give gratefully.
To be a wise steward to all the wealth that comes to me.
To be Bold.
To embrace life’s adventure.
To be a loving and present mother, an intimate and committed lover, a compassionate and available friend, an honourable and loving daughter, a courageous inspirational leader, a responsible citizen of our glorious Earth.
To acknowledge the source of my creative intelligence and my responsibility for all that exists in my Universe.
To embody the essence of integrity and inspire integrity in others.
To be my truth, my spirit, my love…..
Unbounded
Timeless
Eternal

I would love to hear from you about how you live in the mystery….

The Divided Life

Friday, November 6th, 2009

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We are scattered like a thousand pieces across our world. There is the part of us that appears like we “have it all together” in public. The part of us that is terrified of what people would think if they saw behind our mask of “perfect”. The part of us that constantly worries about what people will think if we do this or that. The part of us that yearns for something greater, like a purposeful purpose, or a determined and clear way forward. The part of us that believes we must do the right thing. Whatever that is! Stay in an unhappy marriage for the kids, or because of the money thing, or because isn’t that what you do? The part of us that has a different self outside of a marriage, playing the field, hoping to remain undiscovered.  The part of us that is trapped in work that has no movement and rhythm, that we experience as  the same track playing over and over again, day in, day out. The part of us that obeys someone else’s rules, and wonders, why? Maybe our parents said that this is how we are to live our life, and we bought it, no questions asked. The part of us that thinks we can get away with some of our little tricks and little atrocities, that falls under a spell of power, or seduction, or glamor. The part of us that misbehaves anyway, because we have not yet learned to stop throwing tantrums.

The pieces of us that are scattered in all these places have a deep yearning. Yet for what they are yearning is often not clear. Something is missing. But what? All of our small pieces are separated from the core, from our centre, yet unaware even that they are separate. And in their isolation and loneliness lies our pain and confusion. “Who am I?” “Where am I?” “Why does this feel so very hard?” “Where did I get lost?”

When we live this divided life people never really know which “us” they are speaking to. Are we the public person? Are we the person with the fears and insecurities…the one we try our very best to hide? Are we the happy go lucky larrikin or the man who cries at night into the pillow, the pain of his divided life swallowing him in despair? Which part of us is true, we cry to an empty room?

People don’t know us!  Even more tragic, we don’t know ourselves! How can we know who we are when we are scattered like dust motes in the wind? Where do we begin to look to find our all together self?

Our journey and our joy is to bring all the pieces back together. To be the one person, undivided. To show one face, the same face to all and sundry, aligned and in truth, and with courage and fortitude.

No easy task this. On this road we need to get passed our insecurities, challenge all the rules we have been living by, learn to like all the bad bits…the anger, our smallness, our apparent weaknesses, our addictions; find our song inside, bring our selves out from the dark place, say yes to what we know is our path, say no to all the distractions; distinguish between our voice of truth and the voice of ego, find our courage, rejoice in our vulnerability, stand up and sing!

Living the divided life has a high cost. The burden of carrying all of these pieces is enormous. To project an image in public of having “it all together” takes every ounce of our energy. Many people who carry this burden end up sick, their physical body so depleted of vital energy sources in other areas, for so long..that breakdown is inevitable. Or they suffer depression. The demons they work so hard to suppress from public view demand attention. After all, they are a part of us, denied. So they squeeze through the cracks of our soul, and find residence in our heart, where they play their drums in increasing intensity. These demons are not bad. They are the parts of us calling for attention. Our depression and illness is our siren song to find a way to bring all the pieces of ourselves home. To be united in one song, our unique song, the song we were born to sing.

So we go to work. This is the inner work of being human. Many people try to avoid this work. Its not something taught in schools, or discussed in most homes. Our world is focused on the world out there. It’s far easier to focus on the world out there. The world of bricks and mortar, stuff we can grow and move and do things with. Our society has divorced itself from the inner work, often confusing it with religion, or new ageism, or whoo whoo! It is none of those things, although it can be found within all of them. It is the work of getting to know our animating spirit, the real “who”, of who we are. The quiet, steady, always present part of our self, wise and all knowing. But first we must take the time to listen, or develop the courage to hear this wise all knowing part of self.

Our inner work involves bringing all of our broken and disparate pieces back together, back to our core. It doesn’t matter where we start. Starting is what matters. Getting to know all the parts of ourselves and finding acceptance. Or finally looking in the eye of our insecurities, our fears, our self hate, and questioning their dominance of us? Or learning to say NO to what is not on our song sheet, and YES to what is. Learning to know the difference between the two.

And where does the journey of finding all of our broken pieces and bringing them back together take us? It brings us home. Only when all the pieces are together again can we really step into our own power and magnificence, and sing with the clearest of clear voices. When we find this place we speak with the forces of all of nature that are now together. There is an ease and freedom that is found in this place. Our energy is high as we are no longer juggling all of the pieces of a divided life. All of our energy is now available to do one thing, and that is to be us in full song. We are aligned, congruent, whole. We know who we are. And we accept our truth as it is.

And of course, the mystery and paradox is that now, from this place of wholeness, we can move to the end of the final separation. We can come home to home itself and find oneness with all.

As my favourite poet, Hafiz said…

At
Some point
Your relationship
With God
Will
Become like this:
Next time you meet him in the forest
Or on a crowded city street
There won’t be anymore
“Leaving:
That is
God will climb into
Your pocket
You will simply just take
Yourself
Along

Radical Truth

Thursday, October 29th, 2009

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My life has been a story of radical truth. A new friend and amazing lady, Lindley Edwards, shared this poem with me last week.

The Way It Is

There’s a thread you follow. It goes among
things that change.  But it doesn’t change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you can’t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.
You don’t ever let go of the thread.

William Stafford ~

The thread in my life has been my inner search for my own truth. What is my truth, and how do I express that in the world. And how do I support other people to express their truth? This path, combined with truth’s twin, Integrity, has been my constant companion.

I was chatting via email with another new friend I met at the State of the World Forum in Brazil, Mounir Tabet, about the subject of Radical Truth..

“I am very intrigued by your concept of Radical Truth and it seems to me that to get to it one has to cross many barriers: first one has to recognize that he is not speaking or living truth; second one requires a great degree of courage to be in truth because at some level and until one is in full alignment with truth, the consequences of being in the truth are costly (as one starts to be in truth, one’s world starts to change. He may lose friends and jobs and acquaintances that he sustains in absence of truth-even though they drain him)-of course once one has made the transition to full and radical truth – he shall be set free as divine knowledge seem to intimate-but of course at that stage he is a completely transformed man; third one requires a great degree of self love to forgive himself for having sustained his life for so long in absence of truth. In many cases, most of us are not ready to tackle these (and perhaps other) barriers since at some level we know that the initial price is too high the ego has to die but our egos usually fight hard to stay alive.”

Mounir speaks of radical truth with the wisdom of someone who knows the journey.

Yes, we do need to identify what is truth for us. And what is not. For so many of us, this is very hard, as we have lived a life like a cork bobbing in a huge ocean, going with the tide, never really choosing with consciousness where we want our path to go. As if we were under a spell. And we may or may not wake up. Some people never do. As Mary Oliver says,

“Are you breathing just a little and calling it a life?”

How do we know what our truth is? We know because our heart sings, and our body hums along with it, and people comment about the light in our eyes, and say thank you to us often for what we bring, no matter how small or large. Because we get out of bed and we are awake, and we want to go and do our work in the world. Who we are on every level is integrated, we only have one face that all the world sees. There is no face for certain events and occasions, and another face for other events and people. Radical truth requires no separation of self on any level, or in any aspect.

Sometimes the very thing that is stopping us from accessing our truth is the fear that says living our radical truth will cause so much pain to others, and to us. We would rather stay numb and comfortable, than step out into the light of truth, because it’s promise is so unknown. So we keep to the world we know, never really awake. This fear can be so huge that the only way we can become aware of it is to go into a very dark night, and often for a long time. The dark night is the incubator and birth place for our radical truth. It can also be the place where all of our separate selves are integrated into one whole.

The simplicity of who we really are is right before us, but so far from our grasping because we have not the eyes to see. In the wonderful movie, “Julie and Julia,” there was a fabulous scene where Julie, the young woman searching for the truthful expression of her life, was agonizing with her husband..what should she do?…as they were both feasting on this amazing food she had made. She was feasting on the very obvious truth of her life and expression. Often times the journey to this place is long and hard, simply because only when we have developed the eyes to see our radical truth, can we then allow it to blossom with the integrity it demands to thrive.

Courage is essential. Courage is a heartfelt commitment to stepping out to meet truth. We have to build the nerve, hold the nerve, and trust. There are no guarantee’s. None at all. Our stepping out may be a rocky road. So many people expect that their life of radical truth will guarantee the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow…well…I do believe it will…but do be very careful what you expect the pot of gold to contain…money, wealth, the relationship of your dreams, fame, the best seller….non of these items might be in your pot of gold. The Gold may be a quiet life in a little cottage in nowhere land. Simple, and yet deeply resonant because it is your truth. Our ego wants our truthful life to look a certain way. The paradox is that this is not the truth. It is our ego speaking.

Discerning between the truth and the ego is the work of the wise and experienced, those people willing to surrender to all.  How does your ego voice speak to you? Often ego is emotional, demanding, and has little space for service to others, or others at all. Your truthful self is quiet, calm, ever present, steady, holds a big big space for others, and celebrates the joy of all of life in all its shapes and sizes.

It is through self love that we allow our truth to speak. The ego self is the part of us that will be overly critical, get angry, throw tantrums, tell you you are an idiot, incapable, a fool…

Accessing our radical truth requires self love, self reflection, and a core willingness to surrender, relax and let go to what emerges. It is not a passive state, but it is relaxed and has less effort than the effort required to live a lie.

Achieving self love and a life of radical truth is a life’s work. We start with small steps. The fastest way I know to reach a place of aligned truth is to work with a teacher, guide, coach

The people I admire most on earth, alive or dead, have all lived a life of uncompromising radical truth. The Bucky’s, Anita Roddicks, Richard Bransons…and so many other less famous people.

As Rumi said..

“there is some kiss

we want

with the whole

of our

lives.”

What is your radical truth?

The Field Effects of Our Every Action and Thought

Friday, October 9th, 2009

- A process for comprehensive consideration of all that we do, say, think…

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Part 1. Awaken to and illumination of…

This process is to support the awakening of people to the field effects of their every action and thought.

If we drop a very small pebble into a pond, ripples will go out from where we dropped the pebble, no matter how small or large the pebble, or how large or small the pond. These ripples have an effect on the whole dynamic of the pond, whether we like it or not. Therefore, to be truly conscious and responsible for our every actions, and thoughts, we need to consider with exquisite care the effect of our action, and the dynamics that are created when we take that action. What effects will our ripples have on the fish in the pond, on the retaining wall, on the growth of the lily pads, of the people who fish in the pond, and the people who buy the fish..eat the fish, or come to the pond to contemplate their future…and the animals who drink from the pond….?

Our history of humanity is littered with examples of how we have not considered the field effects of our actions and thoughts. As the movie “Blood Diamond” highlighted, to wear a beautiful diamond on our hand is no longer an innocent action. At what price, from the very beginnings of the formation of the diamond, to its mining, to who mined it, and under what circumstances and at what cost…human, land, nation, soul…to its pathway to my hand, the buyer, the seller, the next buyer, the diamond cutter….what is the real cost of this diamond? Awakening to and illumination of the field effect always considers the whole.

We are now living the consequences of our thinking that has been until this time, focused on an outcome with little or no consideration of the field effects.

The people of the Maldive Islands, for example, have hardly registered on the scale of green house gas use, if at all. Yet their entire country is under threat of immersion from rising sea levels, so that other countries can enjoy urban sprawl, and all the other wonderful choices we have as wealthy nations.

As part of a global world, and as we become more conscious, we can no longer afford to ignore the field effects of our every action. The butterfly fluttering its wings in the Amazon can indeed cause a typhoon in Asia. Each and every one of us is the butterfly. How are we fluttering our wings? With consciousness, consideration, care and reverence for all of life? Comprehensively considerate?

Part 2. Recursive nature intrinsic within comprehensive consideration of our field effect.

Even in this very process of awakening and illumination we need to be comprehensively considerate of the field effects created from our very awakening.

Our illumination and awakening may arouse in us various forms of energy in the form of emotion, everything from;

Rage

Anger

Frustration

Anxiety

Fear

Indifference

Empathy

Excitement

Inspiration

Compassion

And our emotion may move us to choose an action.

Therefore intrinsic in the very design of our awakening and illumination process we must build in an environment that supports all of these possible energies of emotion in a way that channels the many types of energy towards a natural design that aligns with the flow of healthy life for all sentient beings.

Anger about the blood diamond is acceptable, but if my anger moves to action, it is important that I pause and consider what action I take? And what are the field effects of that action? My action may be to resort to an open expression of anger, such as taking up a fight with the mine managers. Or my anger may move me to create a petition, or even better, a movie with a major star to play the lead role, outlining the story of the Blood Diamonds.

Here in lies the recursive nature intrinsic within comprehensive consideration of our field effect. My anger may move me closer or further away from care and consideration of the whole, and the healthy flow of all of life. Which path will I choose? And when we design programs and events for illumination and awareness, are we also considering the field effects in all aspects of our design?

Buckminster Fuller used a similar model, which he described as precession. Often he would say that man’s side effect was nature’s main effect.

This article was created as a result of a conversation with David Martin, Laurent Larbourmene, and myself on the 28th August, 2009. David is one of the clearest minds and brightest soul working on our planet today. David coined the term field effect, and I wrote the article with his collaboration, to capture the essence of what he described.

Our intention in all of the work we do, both myself through the Positive Deviant site, and the work at Syzergy, plus with the collaboration of my many colleagues from around the world, is to awaken to and illuminate the field effects, from the very subtle to the overt, of our every actions, thoughts and design processes in order to navigate our ever increasingly complex world with elegance and in accordance with natural synergistic design, at all times being comprehensively considerate.